Divorce

This is going to be a rant. That's my one and only warning. Stop reading now if you don't want to see it.

I'm getting VERY sick of people who tell me that my marriage ended in divorce because I got pregnant before I was married. Yes, I did get pregnant, and I am sorry that I sinned and got pregnant before marriage. I do not plan on continuing to accept punishment from other sinful people, I have told God I'm sorry. I raised my daughter the best I could, took her to church, read her the Bible, taught her the Bible, educated her myself, and did my very best to put her needs before my own. I can say, without a doubt, that I was not a perfect parent. I can also say that at this point in time Diana seems to be an amazing young adult, she's a student at a Bible Institute, is traveling around singing in churches, and tells other people about the LORD on a daily basis. She is an asset to the world and I do not regret her in any way. My slate is clean there. Clean.

I tried to be a good wife to Jerrid. I tried to be respectful and obedient, which is what I was taught a good wife does. I wasn't perfect at it, but I tried. There were a lot of hurtful things that happened in my marriage that no one but myself and Jerrid know about, but I rarely told a soul about it, because I believed that it was the job of a wife to uphold the name of her husband. Even if it was his own actions that would have made his name not as well respected.

I know I wasn't a perfect wife, but I tried, and I was faithful. I took care of him, prayed for him, when he cheated on me I prayed for the person who had cheated with him. The Bible says to pray for your enemies. I can say today that I do not hate the woman, I feel sorry for her, and praying for my enemy did that for me personally.

Jerrid was not a perfect husband but he also tried to keep things together. He worked very hard at the physical part of keeping our family together financially. He did try. Otherwise I'm fairly sure our marriage wouldn't have lasted for 15 years, not to mention we dated for 5 years, too. A 20 year relationship doesn't just happen, it's work.

My marriage failed because we are both human beings and neither of us were perfect and neither of us put God first every single day of the marriage. I can say it's probably not a good idea to pick a mate at the age of 15, in most cases. We didn't go to any counseling before we married, I know if I ever get married again that will be the first thing I do.  Me being single today is not a punishment because I got pregnant. It is hurtful to put that kind of thing out there to other people. How is it that God takes our sins and forgives, "as far as the East is from the West", and yet other Christians can continue to throw the past into each other's face?  For what reason I can only surmise, is to build themselves up, or maybe to explain the world, help them feel secure, I know not why. I don't think that is how God means it to be.

"Be ye kind, one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God, for Christ's sake, hath forgiven you." Ephesian 4:32