I'm confused. I know that I'm a Christian, I don't doubt my salvation. Yet I feel like I keep trying to fill the pain I've experienced lately with something other than God. Why do I this? It doesn't ever make me feel better either. It just band-aids the pain, then later it hurts even more than before.
I'm sure that I'm not going to keep feeling sad like this, because I know that happiness is a choice. I have all I need to be content, bc I know I'm going to Heaven, & I do have a relationship with Christ. What I need to do is work on that so why do I keep wasting my time on earth not doing it? I feel like I was so much better at doing that when I was married and I was home. It's harder now. In the end, its what I've done for Him that will matter anyway. I know all this, yet in the back of my mind I still keep wondering what's wrong with me.
I realize, this post, it's just wonderings not coming to a conclusion. I don't give the answer on how to fix this. I don't even know why I'm writing it. Then I'm going to post it & share it on fb. I guess I just need to get it out and maybe I am hoping someone will tell me what's wrong with me.
I guess I need to just go to sleep and let things be better in the morning, because I know they will. The sun is going to rise, God is going to be the same, and my debt will still have been paid by Jesus' sacrifice. I'm convinced that my hope will be renewed tomorrow.
Lamentations 3:22-23 "It is of the Lord's mercies we are not consumed because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is Thy faithfulness."
I would say its because your human. We fall short always. 1 thing I have learned in church is that who do we compare ourselves too when we determine oir own righteousness... So, if I compare myself to Charles Manson- I'm looking great... My sins are way less than his. My heart in such better state, BUT when I compare myself to God I don't looks so great and no matter what I do, I never will. But I don't have too bc Jesus paid that price.
ReplyDeleteSecondly, we live in a world controlled by Satan. We know one day, Jesus will return and he will take control of this Earth. The true devoted believers will be with the Lord, yet those who denies oir Lord will be separated from him forever. Satan wants us all to deny God and weakens us with every method he can conjure up. It's like a sucker pinch or a kick when we're already down. That's how he makes his way in. Thru those doors we may leave slightly openened.
Be positive in all you do. When the feeling of sadness or loneliness starts to set in, grab the bible, say a prayer, turn away from it in thoughts of good in your life. One thing that has truly helped me is to make lists. So, for example, if you have a lot of feelings of loneliness make a list of all the people in your life, even jot down a little note beside their name that is the reason why they are in your life. For example someone from my list: Rachel, friend d
From high school, cheerful spirit, giving and loving, inseparable friends brought together by the grace of God...
I think your list will turn a negative feeling into a happy positive warm feeling of the blessings in your life... And hopefully will release the lonely feeling,
So what is wrong with you, is your human. What is right with you, well the list goes on and on...
~Betsy
I despise typing on the IPad. So sorry for the grammatical and spelling errors...
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