This morning Cj got out Diana's blue & green toothbrush & set it on the bathroom counter. Then he got out his pink & purple toothbrush & set it on the counter. Then came the monologue, as I overheard him talking to himself.
"You know, I really don't understand why Diana gets the blue & green toothbrush, I really wanted it to be mine. And I have the pink & purple one. Those are girl colors! I had really hoped I could have that one, blue & green are my favorite colors. I just wish it was mine." Then after he gazed upon the desired blue & green toothbrush, "You know, she's at grandma's, she's never going to know, I'm just going to use it this once."
Sunday, April 22, 2012
The Blue & Green Toothbrush
My Take On the Song Fireflies
So this is my take on the song, Fireflies by Owl City, which is one of my most favorite songs ever. I have liked it from the first time I hear d it but couldn’t figure it out. Maybe it has to do with all that my kids & I have gone through in the last year but I feel like I understand it now & I like it more than ever!
Fireflies
by Adam Young
You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep
To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams
I believe this song is about childlike faith and joy. Can you remember when you were little & Fireflies would come out for the night? When you’re a kid, fireflies are magic. When you’re an adult, fireflies are bugs. This song is talking about how so quickly the ability to see the good in people, the world, and in magic is gone from a person. You grow up, horrible things happen around and to you, people hurt each other, & you start to wonder if anyone ever really cares about each other. You rush around working, buying, achieving, and you forget to stop and take the time to enjoy the people around you!
The writer of this song seems to be giving us a wakeup call, he says, “You would NOT believe your eyes.” And then he creates this beautiful word picture, but it’s sad because he’s saying that he can NOT be in the picture. He seems to wish he could recapture the childlike outlook on the world; the belief in magic, joy in dancing around for no reason at all, and just stopping to take the time to have some fun. But he can’t do it because things are just moving too fast, (“I’d like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly.”)
BUT, it’s not all sad, because he still has deep down inside that little bit of childlike look on the world. I guess maybe it comes out when he sleeps and has super weird dreams or something. Unfortunately, doesn’t seem like it happens too often because he “feels like such an insomniac” He even seems to be begging to get that feeling back, but the world just won’t quit creeping in.
This song makes me think about my own life, because I’ve seen a lot people hurt each other, hurt my kids, and hurt me in the last year or more. The worst of it most recently. It would be really easy to shut off the belief that there are really people that are unselfish left in this world, that I could love someone someday and they would actually really love me back, & I could even quit believing in God and the Bible. I mean, as a wife, I thought I was doing what I supposed to do, I tried to take care of Jerrid, & I tried to be an unselfish wife and mother. I did it because it was right, love is unselfish. So, since things ended the way they did, sure would be easy to stop believing. But I don’t.
The writer says, “But I’ll know where several are, if my dreams get real bizarre, Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar”. Also, in the video, he’s singing and playing and all the while all these super fun toys are magically playing in the background, and he just doesn’t even notice! The Speak and Spell (Is that what it was called, can’t remember) is typing, “HELLO” & “FIREFLIES”. It’s like the old magic is saying, “HEY STOP FOR A SECOND AND NOTICE ME!”
I refuse to allow other people’s actions to take away the child that is left deep inside me! Even though, I almost did. I refuse to stop believing in truth, love, faith, & friendship. I still believe in fairies, argue if you want, I believe in fairies. I am still going to turn on music and dance around the house, and if that makes you think I’m weird, I feel sorry for you. Today a friend told me, that the more I allowed God to intervene, He would surely give me the grace and peace I longed for. I guess that’s what I hope to do. I may not see that on this earth, but I will someday in Heaven. I just hold onto that Hope
Fireflies
by Adam Young
You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep
To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep
I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams
I believe this song is about childlike faith and joy. Can you remember when you were little & Fireflies would come out for the night? When you’re a kid, fireflies are magic. When you’re an adult, fireflies are bugs. This song is talking about how so quickly the ability to see the good in people, the world, and in magic is gone from a person. You grow up, horrible things happen around and to you, people hurt each other, & you start to wonder if anyone ever really cares about each other. You rush around working, buying, achieving, and you forget to stop and take the time to enjoy the people around you!
The writer of this song seems to be giving us a wakeup call, he says, “You would NOT believe your eyes.” And then he creates this beautiful word picture, but it’s sad because he’s saying that he can NOT be in the picture. He seems to wish he could recapture the childlike outlook on the world; the belief in magic, joy in dancing around for no reason at all, and just stopping to take the time to have some fun. But he can’t do it because things are just moving too fast, (“I’d like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly.”)
BUT, it’s not all sad, because he still has deep down inside that little bit of childlike look on the world. I guess maybe it comes out when he sleeps and has super weird dreams or something. Unfortunately, doesn’t seem like it happens too often because he “feels like such an insomniac” He even seems to be begging to get that feeling back, but the world just won’t quit creeping in.
This song makes me think about my own life, because I’ve seen a lot people hurt each other, hurt my kids, and hurt me in the last year or more. The worst of it most recently. It would be really easy to shut off the belief that there are really people that are unselfish left in this world, that I could love someone someday and they would actually really love me back, & I could even quit believing in God and the Bible. I mean, as a wife, I thought I was doing what I supposed to do, I tried to take care of Jerrid, & I tried to be an unselfish wife and mother. I did it because it was right, love is unselfish. So, since things ended the way they did, sure would be easy to stop believing. But I don’t.
The writer says, “But I’ll know where several are, if my dreams get real bizarre, Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar”. Also, in the video, he’s singing and playing and all the while all these super fun toys are magically playing in the background, and he just doesn’t even notice! The Speak and Spell (Is that what it was called, can’t remember) is typing, “HELLO” & “FIREFLIES”. It’s like the old magic is saying, “HEY STOP FOR A SECOND AND NOTICE ME!”
I refuse to allow other people’s actions to take away the child that is left deep inside me! Even though, I almost did. I refuse to stop believing in truth, love, faith, & friendship. I still believe in fairies, argue if you want, I believe in fairies. I am still going to turn on music and dance around the house, and if that makes you think I’m weird, I feel sorry for you. Today a friend told me, that the more I allowed God to intervene, He would surely give me the grace and peace I longed for. I guess that’s what I hope to do. I may not see that on this earth, but I will someday in Heaven. I just hold onto that Hope
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